Tag: I am a runner

adventures in quarantine, Adventures in running, Uncategorized

Don’t let it go to waste.

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I wanted to get out and run all weekend. But I didn’t. I was kind of afraid.

All last week I walked the neighborhood with S. And I started running being I was brave for S, who was self-conscious to be running outside.

Then it was my turn to be brave alone, and I was like, well, no.

I did use that time to stretch. I stretched all freaking weekend. I did still walk Friday and Saturday. But I didn’t brave the run.

S got back today and I itched for it and made him come with me. I don’t think he loves it. I think, full on, he is humoring me. But that’s okay. I’ll take it.

But so today we walked and at the ten minute mark, I took off running (without S). Up a huge freaking hill. One minute. Check.

We walked some more and came to the huge downhill and we ran it together. One minute. Check.

We walked to the end of that cul de sac and played ball down there for ten minutes. All of which I never stopped jumping or running. Walked back. Ran one minute. Check.

Down another cul de sac and back. This is where S told me he could run down to the corner in a minute. And he fucking booked it. Another minute run. Check.

He took the street in a minute four and was wiped! I told him I aspire to his greatness and that one day we will run it together in less than a minute. Goals!

We walked a short distance more and I told him I was ready to run again. He wasn’t. I told him I’d loop back around. Run one minute. Check.

Almost home now. I feel so freaking good! I want one more run in. He’s dragging. I tell him I’ll loop back around again. One minute run. Check.

Holy moly. I walk it off for a couple more minutes and that was 40 minutes total, including the 10 minute ball playing pause. Six one minute runs. Check.

I’ve never in my life moved my body like this before. I always quietly knew my body was meant for this, but a lifetime of weight (emotional and physical) kept me from it. Life was heavy. Life is lighter now.

adventures in quarantine, Adventures in running, Uncategorized

Keep my composure when it’s time.

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I jacked up my knee(s) a bit. I’m thinking it’s patellar tendinitis. Seems the most likely culprit.

The universe was like “hold up, li’l girl” and then instead of stomping about it–because that would have really hurt–I said “okay” and I complied without complaint.

I am no less committed to my dream, though I certainly feel the affects of this injury on my heart.

Yes, it sucks and I’m trying to honor those feelings in myself. I don’t want to dismiss or compartmentalize them. It does suck and I recognize that. But also, I have the tools and support to navigate it.

I will keep chugging along.

From the start I have viewed this time as both training and running. Training wants to be the focus. I’ll ice and rest for now and then I’ll start strength training, increase walking, and focus on endurance in other ways. This isn’t a hard stop. It’s just a speed bump.

I still choose joy. I am still a runner.

Adventures in running, Uncategorized

I see what I can.

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Day #2 of training. The universe is highly amused.

I was apprehensive about training today because I got so tired so quick yesterday. I desperately want running to be awesome and cathartic. I’m not there yet. So far it’s more energy expending.

It’s a process. I embrace the process.

So! Apprehensive. But then we fostered a dog today. A dog, it turns out, Harley doesn’t much like. Trying to introduce them, I wrestled Harley. And the other pup. Then Chris and I walked them. In the rain. Wrestling more. I was pretty well tapped out.

Except I’m training, so tough poopoo. Train anyway.

I turned my music up super loud and ran in the freshly stormed on field, with my freshly drenched Converse and socks. My 15 minute training from yesterday increased to 20.

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I thought about doubling it. It was doable. But also I was drenched and so I took the 20 minutes as a win.

It wasn’t as hard or daunting as I feared. And this sweet girl greeted me when I finished. The universe definitely wants to see how important this is to me.

It’s really fucking important.