I saw the world spin beneath you.

I thought it couldn’t get worse this morning. Or maybe I knew that it would and that’s why I was so terrified.

I was even more scared when Chris told me about catching me talking to some guy on fb. A guy I had never heard of.

Apparently he had been hallucinating.

And now here I sit sobbing in my son’s room because it seems my husband has been drinking for two weeks.

Enough to be hallucinating.

And hiding it, while I sit obliviously by.

After six years and a half years of sobriety.

And I just cannot express how alone I am.