May 27th PM2

In my plans for following my body and not my mind (they’ll find symbiosis in time), I have decided the nicest (read: most efficient) thing to do is stop eating foods that make my body feel terrible. Not classes of food, but specific ones. So no more of the mayo or honey mustard dressing that I have here. And probably no thousand island either. I have tasty alternatives (stone ground mustard, an oil and vinegar mix, cilantro ranch). I’m not changing anything. I’m not reacting or being hasty. I’m not eliminating it.

I’m honoring my body’s preference. There’s no need for them to be a staple in my diet. And I’m not heartbroken in the least. This feels like a really constructive way to listen to my body.


May 27th AM

I’ve never been in this part of my eating disorder recovery before. Where I’m mindful of my body and not restrictive with my food. My body, in the past, has been so sensitive to quality of food. I wonder when/if the inflammation will go down. I will give my body its due time.